Pinned down.

After coming up short in reaching the Dean's List again this term, I've been thinking what to do to get this hatred, frustration, disappointment out of me after all that's happened. All those hardworks, sleepless nights, stress, body aches...arrggghhh. I need to go to bora. I need to unwind again just like last year. Shit, I didn't join the SOS(Summer of Service) this year. And I don't have enough money yet to go there again...grrr. I really hate how this day turned out to be. My pride, my ego was pedigreed and pinned down one, two, three. Never got the chance to kick out or put a shoulder up. I missed this opportunity, and there's no chance in hell waiting for me...it's done. It's over I'm all fucked-up. =(